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STEROIDS

I first injected steroids in 2001, I was 12 stone, within months I went up to 15 stone and eventually got to 116kg just over 18stone! I was benching 220kg and warmed up with 160kg, shoulder pressing 150kg! And shrugging 300kg! I was a monster. back then the gear was real, real testosterone not the home made gear you get now, I got roid rage quite a lot. I struggle to write about the crap I’ve done and I grow week as I type, I hate to relive the past. I was an animal! In my Early 20s full of testosterone! Donna was my gf at the time, I soon cheated on her, then Laura, I was seeing 3 woman at the same time for 5 years! And as many non regulars as I could fit in-between. I used woman for sex and instant gratification also as a emotional crutch for the lack of love and attention I had as a child. I would feel loved and wanted, knowing these woman wanted me, I was that damaged the love of just one woman was not enough. I needed to feel wanted, craved for, needed, I wanted to be fought for, and my use of woman went half way to satisfied my need.

KFC CHICKEN RAGE!

I jumped the counter at KFC over a twister meal. The description given by the staff was of a white tanned man with bright eyes and a look of rage in his face, a cross between Bruce Willis and Vin Diesal wearing a white vest, I was accused of jumping the counter and smashing the till into the cooked chicken, all this was over a twister meal because it was a bit soggy! The roids were controlling me and I had a real bad temper! On the way back a man was beeping and trying to get past me in traffic cos i cut him up, I laughed and didn’t move, he jumped out the car, I thought he would walk away when he see the size of me, a skinny man in a suit, he opened my door and pulled me out the car throwing punches at me, I was ducking them and staying out their way, I wanted to hit back but didn’t want to hurt the man, eventually I noticed two builders in van that witnessed this attack, I swung a left hook hitting the man in teeth and made him stumble, I helped him back to his car and he went to the police station and I got arrested but not charged.

Many many incidents like this took place, the gear made my into an animal! i had no patience for anything...and i wanted woman and lots of them!!!

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